One week ago God presented me with the challenge of taking on the responsibility of joining the camp comm. I’d hesitated because I was fearful of how it would challenge my tight schedule even further, and designing is not something that can be easily done up in a few days (though not many will appreciate).
But one week has passed and I’ve taken on the challenge. Today’s meeting has been rather an eye opener and we’ve roughly had an idea how things are gonna be done.
I have been sworn to secrecy for this, so the only thing I can say now is…
WE HAVE 12 WEEKS TO CAMP!
Today during service I couldn’t be ushered into God’s presence no matter how hard I tried. Just felt that I was clogged up with alot of anger and bitterness, and my mind was just wandering. I was just going through with all the usual actions of clapping, moving, jumping but deep inside I felt sick of myself for this hypocritical front. Then I stopped to pray.
I have to admit I’m not a person without my fair share of flaws and shortcomings. As much as I might seem okay and coping well at times, people who really know me will know that I’m easily flustered in times of urgency.
That’s just an example. Oh and I’m easily insecure too, like how I can simply feel at unease and vulnerable because I’m the only one in my school in my lifegroup that’s taking A’s this year. The sense of being left out and alone is magnified everyday.
All in all, all my flaws just show me how much I need God.
4am, 12 Decenber 2010, Singapore Sports School bleachers.
Christina was sitting with Caleb in the cold with a cup of lime ice cream.
At that moment, God heard her conviction and started His silent yet life-changing work within her.
She’d said that she had a burden to reconcile her relationship with Chiewtong and bring her to know God.
But she had little faith, and not expecting anything to even change.
God is still God, and she is not. What God has in store for her, she couldn’t control.
Today Chiewtong is a new believer alive in Christ.